I HAD AN INJECTION ( Read more... )

Ah. Good. Fighting spirit coming to the rescue. Now, honest disagreements, squabbles, and cockups are one thing - I can always do better there. But when it comes to malicious, dishonest gossip, I am not the one is shameful, harmful, marginal, and just plain ugly.

Cobra in effect, bitchez!


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Having a moment of premenstrual social phobia panic about Gally. After cocking up at Chicago TARDIS year before last I'll be on rather better behaviour, but I'll still need to do the Chicks Dig Time Lords panel, and there and elsewhere I'm going to be surrounded by people I've clashed with online. My perception, in fact, is that wherever I go at ( Read more... )

And a thousand thousand slimy things lived on / And so did I!

Initial -oscopy results excellent. More detailed results from biopsies and what-have-you will be ready in around a month, carrying with them the astonishing possibility of a diagnosis after twenty-three years.

I cannot believe what a fucking doddle that was.

Had a great old chat with the gastroenterologist. The last time I saw him, ten years ago, I was a trembling little creature who panicked at the thought of needles or operations. This time we were both "Bring on the -oscopies!" He wants to have a good rummage around in my innertubes and see if he can find out what's broken: I'm having what the ( Read more... )

Feeling a bit more positive this morning, after allowing myself a good wallow yesterday. I was only eighteen when I first fell ill with my tummy troubles. It took six months to get a sort of diagnosis, and twenty-three years on we still don't know exactly what's wrong with me. In my tender mind, visits to the doctor became linked not to hope and ( Read more... )

( Panic attacks, scary plane incidents, dubious female supremacy )

Unwell. Xanax relieves anxiety but not the depression which results from long stress and panic. Generally a bit paralysed. Also, I have a headache which feels like being repeatedly stabbed in the base of the skull.

XANAX YOU ARE MY BFF <3 <3 <3

Woke up at 5 in the morning with a completely inexplicable panic attack. Oh joy.

I blame the Limburger.